Time for New Year's resolutions.
All I have to say for 2009, is that it was one tough, enduring year. It was one hell of a roller coaster, with extreme lows and highs. Events from this year have made a lasting impact for the rest of my life.
The Highs2009 was the year I found myself jet-setting the nation in pursuit of starting the foundation of my career. It brought me to places that I've never been to, and I met people who I'll never forget. Ironically, after all the exploration, I ended up in my birthplace, 2500 away from home. I was drawn to it because I just felt like I belonged here, at least for the 3 years I'll need to complete my education...it is both very whimsical and haunting to be walking on the same roads my grandparents who I never got to know, and seeing the house that I was raised in for the first 6 months of my life. Though definitely tough at times, I am finally content with my surroundings, an element that I prioritized when looking for the right school.
Friendships were stronger than ever this year. Not going to talk about this too much, because I will go on forever with it...but I am very thankful for having such caring and supportive people in my life. There were times this year where I was literally beaten down, and wasn't sure if I could get up...and these people were here to help me get back up.
And...as for <3-life...;). It was definitely a high point. I'll leave it at that.
The badThis year was plagued by paralyzing heartbreak that eclipsed the enjoyment of joyful moments - the kind where you find yourself crying so hard that you can barely catch your breath, something that I never experienced before. This heartbreak was this especially painful because it was also inflicted upon the people I love the most - and they all hurt the same way I did, and for some it was worse. We all were just helpless to the barrage of undeserved resentment insensitive to the pain we were experiencing.
Yeah, it was bad. But we're getting through it slowly but surely, and are looking hopeful for the New Year will bring much healing for damage that was done.
All in all...I learned a lot of myself this year. Years of hard work and perseverance revealed it's rewards. I learned to never give up, and to keep my head up high, no matter how dreadful things may be. I learned ask for help when it is needed. It taught me what it means to live with meaning, and how to cope and stay strong for the people around me, even when I am hurting along with them.
2010Anyways...enough of the bad...what is done is done, and there's no use in dwelling on it. All we can do now is to let things run their course, and leave our doors open when reality finally sets in. The most important thing that must be carried on is to not let what has happened already malign my character. Yes, what has happened is awful, but that still does not give me an excuse to be awful back.
As for my resolutions for 2010, here they are:
- Run a 10K race...and maybe a half marathon, but that's pushing it.
- Cook my own meals
- Read for fun more often
- Keep up with organizing my schedule by inputing it on iCal
- Australia Winter 2010 --> yes, it's gonna happen.
- NOT NEGLECT MY BLOG AGAIN...which means I must find interesting things to write about
Labels: 2010, heartbreak, resolution
